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I feel so shitty...The house feels so empty now. It sucks. Normally I can just shake it off, but it's like impossible now, I screwed up too bad and I don't think it can ever go to the way it was. I hate being like this, I feel so alone...so lost. I guess its all my fault, I did it to myself. If I could take it back I would, But I can't. So now I'm in for the consequences, I'm in it deep now. I don't know what to do. I'm so scared whats going to happen to me, I feel so lost at the same time. Everything that used to be fun just isn't now. Maybe I'm being too dramatic but I cant help it. I try being happy, I tried everything that usually does it, But I can't live with myself now. I guess this is part of the punishment. Where did I go wrong? I was a "perfect" staright A student that didnt do anything, and look where I am now? My moms blaming it on her, but I tell her it isn't her but how do some kids turn out right and some not? Does it have anything to do with there parents? If it does I can't think of anywhere where my mom went wrong, I've been thinking about a lot and I thinks that half my problem, If I would just let it go and look for the best in it, I tried, But theres nothing. I'm seriously scared to get taken away from my parents, I was trying to ask questions about what will happen but they told me to shut up that I was under arrest. I felt better after I talked to Corissa yesterday though about it all, cuz she knows where I'm coming from, since she was sitting right next to me threw it all, and shes into as much shit as I am. My moms freaking cuz now I have a record and she scared about like getting a job, getting into college and everything. But they said it was closed...whatever that means, that like it won't show unless I do it again. Which, I won't. I learned my lesson in the worst way possible. I'm barely here, thats all I can really say. I'm here but my mind isn't. Theres nothing I can do either, If I go out of my room, it will be worse. I will walk in the kitchen for everyone to stop talking and look at me, they all look so disappointed and thats the worse feeling ever, knowing u let them down.
twist ur hips and do the dip
woo I'm at Tiffanys..shes leaving for Flordia tomarrow...which sucks...lol..we jsut got back from the movies..that was wickedly awesome...me and Derek are going out...again..lol...
ugh...I'm inpatient...as soon as Tiffanys dad leaves for work were sneaking out with Mikey SImon and Derek and gettin high..ladee ladee laaa..i cant wait..
OMFG!!! I just heard a fucking gun shot...and we ran outside (yeah arent we smart) adn we seen a car speeding by adnb some person running REALLY fast...hmm..how nice...gotta love the east side...
Swimming threw sick lullabies
Today was a total fucking waste...I didn't do a damn thing. I woke up, went tanning, and we shopping with my mom...oh the fun...I died my hair black..Its wicked...when i get in the light it turns neon purple...my sister said i look like the chick from The RIng..isnt she nice..
Jamie stayed the night Saturday..did the usual..Talk on the phone, listen to music, play guitar, walk to McDonalds and watch The OC like the OC junkies that we are...
I have no idea what I am doing today...Tiffany was posta come over to give me my damn camera back but that little bitch went to Addys house so she could go to church..asked if i wanted to go..I would rat
Its all fun and games untill ur parents find out
Spring break has been awesome so far...
My party was kickass!! There was a few minor bumps in the road btu we got threw them...we all got drunk and addy threw a DVD and it hit Tiffany in the head and she was like im a bad bad person adn she called 911 adn they made me go upstairs wasted and tell my parents 911 was on the phone...I dont even remember what I said..but all my dad said was dont be calling 911 and walked upstairs..i swear there slow...they dont expect nething..hmm...
Trina and Tiffany stayed last night...I felt like Harold and Kumar...We all got high being my shed then we went back to my house, ate a buttload of food and then Za
Where do bad folks go when they die?..
..They don't go to heaven where the angels fly. They go down to the lake of fire and fry.
Wow, I haven't updated this bitch in awhile. Well cheerleading is over, the boys got 2nd in the tournament which is kickass, and now I'm doing soccer...I'm not that good at soccer but thats okay, great way to get to let ur anger out ;)
I got a pretty new electric guitar for my birthday, its kicks so much ass, I'm in love with it...haha...Next Friday is my party...its not gunna be big like last year, too much stuff got broken and there was to much drama. Just my close friends are coming, and thats still like 12 people.
I got into Powers..yay...On Mond
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