I feel so shitty...The house feels so empty now. It sucks. Normally I can just shake it off, but it's like impossible now, I screwed up too bad and I don't think it can ever go to the way it was. I hate being like this, I feel so alone...so lost. I guess its all my fault, I did it to myself. If I could take it back I would, But I can't. So now I'm in for the consequences, I'm in it deep now. I don't know what to do. I'm so scared whats going to happen to me, I feel so lost at the same time. Everything that used to be fun just isn't now. Maybe I'm being too dramatic but I cant help it. I try being happy, I tried everything that usually does it